They couldn't get me up to the therapeutic state of ketamine (a 20 on a scale of 1-20) where you are zonked out and sleep all the time. I was only able to go up to a 15, and that meant I was aware of every effect the ketamine was having on me. I couldn't see at all (blurry double vision), I was hallucinating, vomiting... I just wanted to go home. I wanted it all to end by Tuesday, and I couldn't leave until Friday.
Then, my kidneys became dysfunctional, and that's when keeping me on the ketamine became too much for the medical team to attempt safely. It is also when they spilled the beans that this happened during the last few treatments, and the only rational explain at the time is defective ketamine. They started lowering my dose to try to get my kidneys functioning properly again, but it wasn't happening. That is when I used my patient autonomy and asked to be taken off of the ketamine immediately. They complied.