Turning Points

A lot has happened in the past few days.

1.) I saw my McDreamy, and he spent 45 minutes with me going over my ketamine experience, my symptoms, and the options I have left. He is an absolute joy to be around... always smiling this bright, warm, and compassionate smile. He came to the conclusion that I most likely need to have another surgery, he gave me a new medication, and sent me to a pain management center that he works very closely with. I also FINALLY gave in and asked for his signature on an application for a handicapped sticker that I will use when I start graduate school. There is absolutely NO WAY I can through a campus and get good grades at the same time because I would have to be highly medicated on narcotics to do so (and I hate narcotics).

2.) I saw a psychic. I know, I know... why would I see a psychic? Because I love them! They are great fun! Sylvia Brown is one of my idols (that woman is so cool!). Anyway, I stopped into a psychic's shop after I picked Patrick up from work, because I always walk by it and say how I would love to pop my head in. This time, I finally did. I went to get my tarot cards read, but the woman would not read them, because she said she had a message for me. Summed up, she said that I have an incurable disease and I will live a miserable, crippled life in a wheelchair until I am 90 years old if I don't stop with this atheist crap. Yup... she said if I find God, I will be healed. You know me, I'm up for anything as a student of religion (religious studies minor in college). What do I have to lose? Nothing. What do I have to gain? Everything. I am not a fan of organized religion because of my studies. It's impossible to ignore all I have learned concerning power and control, but I will give a personal relationship with God some exploration... and that is what I am doing right now.

3.) I saw my new pain management doctor, and long story short (I have a doctor appointment that I need to run to soon, so I must hurry this entry), I will be getting a spinal cord stimulator in my spine to lessen the pain (I will have a buzzing sensation instead) and eradicate the chance of a RSD flare/spread if I do have another surgery. It sounds amazing to me!

4.) My pain has been tremendous the past 6 days. The burning is tragic, and I worry that this isn't a flare but is now a new, permanent pain level for me. I've been given ANOTHER medication, that should help with the burning over time until I get the SCS.

5.) My puppy is amazing :-)

Off to the doctor!