Something fantastic happened in that hospital room two and a half weeks ago that has given me a sense of inner peace and acceptance and filled each and every cell in my body with love and gratitude. Perhaps, when McDreamy cut me open, all of my fears, anxieties, and self-criticsms escaped into the crisp, morning air and were replaced with joy...complete and utter bliss even!
It only took me two "near death-like" experiences in two very different but very similar situations to spontaneously be filled with infinite elation and self-appreciation, which I have been striving for the last three and a half years. It has been a laborious road toward acceptance, one that always seemed to end with a brick wall between me and self-love. Somehow, without any extra effort (as if I could try with any more fevor than I already had been), the universe conspired in my favor and resolved my "how do I love the me I am today" inquiry. In my opinion, the key was that I was finally open to receiving such a gift in the natural progression of illness acceptance. I think the proof is in the posts! My positivity practically jumps off the blog pages pinching cheeks and hugging strangers!
Here's more good news! Olivia is out of the hospital and coming to spend a few days with me soon!
My pain is awful today... I stood too much yesterday... but life is grand, and I will just have to sit all day to make up for it. It's tit for tat with this disease.
Happy 4th!
1 comment:
Hi, I haven't yet read through your entire blog, but will. I have CRPS/RSD in all four extremities and now in my face (who woulda thunk it possible, even?!). I enjoy meeting people who are fighting the *good* fight, and winning. You seem to be such a one! Have a good day -- Hang on to that happiness.
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