Baby Shorter and me:
Hi, healers! I have been having such a fabulous time lately. I have been really making the most out of this time before I go into the hospital (July 12th), conquering fear and the need for control while learning how to manifest my desired ketamine outcome (this I will elaborate on just before or after my hospital stay). Lynn and I have been working on the idea that the RSD/CRPS is actually gone from my body, but what I am experiencing is my body's memory of the 5.5 year illness (this is her intuitive feeling about my condition). That is all I am going to say right now, but I will elaborate on this point when I know more. Lynn has explained that it is important to keep things between you and God for awhile, because if you share before you know too much, they can lose their power.
I have been doing a great job answering your anonymous questions asap on formspring, so if you have a question, feel free to ask! I am happy to answer them quickly for you on formspring or in a lengthy blog post.
I was asked twice about my daily way of eating, and the answer to this question is rather boring. I am a raw vegan, so the majority of the foods I eat are fruits, veggies, nuts, and seeds. I try to eat two big salads a day (I love salads for breakfast), and I have a 16oz green juice a day. I snack on fruits and raw bars. Basically, I practice intuitive eating - I eat what I want when I want it by listening to my hunger signals. I don't follow portion sizes, I follow my body's needs. Because of this illness, I am VERY clued in to what my body wants and needs, so the answer to this question is rather uninspiring. I love roasted veggies in A LOT of extra virgin olive oil or flax oil and garlic. I like to see it pooling at the bottom of my bowl :-) I use a lot of oils, and I go overboard on the salad dressing. I have maintained a healthy weight, so I do what works for me. What works for me may not work for anyone else, though. I have a sweet tooth, so I eat a lot of chocolate, and when I am PMSing, I usually dive into the vegan baked goods. That's about it!
I just made a green juice with kale, spinach, green apple, watermelon, and a bunch of blueberries! So good! Any questions?
I was also asked about past lives, so I am going to elaborate on that soon. Also, I want to write a follow up to my relationship and dating posts on intimacy with your partner and chronic pain. Check back soon!
Happy Healing!
Hi, healers! I have been having such a fabulous time lately. I have been really making the most out of this time before I go into the hospital (July 12th), conquering fear and the need for control while learning how to manifest my desired ketamine outcome (this I will elaborate on just before or after my hospital stay). Lynn and I have been working on the idea that the RSD/CRPS is actually gone from my body, but what I am experiencing is my body's memory of the 5.5 year illness (this is her intuitive feeling about my condition). That is all I am going to say right now, but I will elaborate on this point when I know more. Lynn has explained that it is important to keep things between you and God for awhile, because if you share before you know too much, they can lose their power.
I have been doing a great job answering your anonymous questions asap on formspring, so if you have a question, feel free to ask! I am happy to answer them quickly for you on formspring or in a lengthy blog post.
I was asked twice about my daily way of eating, and the answer to this question is rather boring. I am a raw vegan, so the majority of the foods I eat are fruits, veggies, nuts, and seeds. I try to eat two big salads a day (I love salads for breakfast), and I have a 16oz green juice a day. I snack on fruits and raw bars. Basically, I practice intuitive eating - I eat what I want when I want it by listening to my hunger signals. I don't follow portion sizes, I follow my body's needs. Because of this illness, I am VERY clued in to what my body wants and needs, so the answer to this question is rather uninspiring. I love roasted veggies in A LOT of extra virgin olive oil or flax oil and garlic. I like to see it pooling at the bottom of my bowl :-) I use a lot of oils, and I go overboard on the salad dressing. I have maintained a healthy weight, so I do what works for me. What works for me may not work for anyone else, though. I have a sweet tooth, so I eat a lot of chocolate, and when I am PMSing, I usually dive into the vegan baked goods. That's about it!
I just made a green juice with kale, spinach, green apple, watermelon, and a bunch of blueberries! So good! Any questions?
I was also asked about past lives, so I am going to elaborate on that soon. Also, I want to write a follow up to my relationship and dating posts on intimacy with your partner and chronic pain. Check back soon!
Happy Healing!
10 comments:
Love this idea: "I am experiencing is my body's memory of the 5.5 year illness." And still lovin' that you knew this would be the summer of healing!
There's no question that sharing too soon can spoil the magic, but I'm glad you can share your journey with us. Happy Healing =) Tina
Hi, Tina! That is such a cool idea, right?! And intuitively, it feels right to me! Basically, that is what the ketamine does. It reboots the system, almost like turning a computer off and on when it malfunctions. We shall see!
xoxoxo
I remember hearing a few scripture stories that showed that one can be totally healed or a prayer can be totally answered -- it just takes a while to manifest. One example was Lazarus, Jesus had waited a few days before returning home to him. He wasn't rushed. It's almost like He knew Lazarus was healed before he even died. I hope I'm making sense, but it always stayed with me. With my ankles, when people asked how they are I started answering "they're healing." I'm so glad I've been reading your blog and am witnessing your healing. xoxoxo, and thank you.
I am looking forward to your posts on relationships and intimacy with chronic illness. I could especially contribute remarks on the intimacy department...that was an area of great concern and remarkable growth for me!
These are such important areas to tap into, especially for young women. I wish I could have known what I do now when I was diagnosed as a pre-teenager.
Hi, Kris! Beautifully said. I am so happy you are following my journey and that it has been helpful to you. Sending you love xoxo
Red, perfect! I will get on that ASAP!
Hi Maria,
I had RSD and I think your intuition that what you have is a "memory" of the disease might be accurate. To explain, I'll describe my own experience of recovery: I had the overt symptoms of RSD for 1.5 years; after that, it was a slow (3.5 years so far and counting) process of getting my stamina, immune system, muscles, brain and nervous system to work properly. To use a metaphor, in retrospect the RSD was like a fire that burned down the house, and once I put out that fire, I had to clean up + re-build the charred shell from scratch.
It takes strength, determination, and endurance, but I want you to know that you can do it! Do not be afraid of setbacks, and have faith in your body's ability to recover. You're young and strong and healthy and smart, that's half of it. RSD is vicious in how it affects the body systemically; even with the elimination of pain, ie with ketamine, it will take time to "reset" your immune and nervous systems.
In my experience and in retrospect, stamina was the biggest issue that I had to deal with in recovery- or lack of stamina. Doing laundry could put me out for the rest of the day. What I did was to "pretend" I was normal and set about my life normally, engaging in all the activities that many people take for granted but RSD-ers shy away from because they know their bodies can't handle it. When I passed out from pain or fatigue, which in the beginning was pretty early in the day, I'd stop. But gradually- and I mean REALLY gradually, over the course of years- my stamina improved; my immune system calmed down; my muscles returned. I now live life like a "normal" person. You will too!
With affection and support,
J.
Hi, J.! Thank you for taking the time to share your experience with me. It really adds to my hopefulness!!!! Healing is on the way, and I just need to be patient and have faith.
I watched a film last night that spoke about how just being a friend to someone who is suffering from mental or chronic illness can actually help CHANGE their chemistry for the better! Isn't this amazing that by simply connecting with each other in a true, deep and spiritual way, we can help the body, mind and spirit heal in another person AND ourselves as well!
WOW..that just blew me away and this is what I do for a living!! But hearing it put that way was so lovely.
I have worked with many people who I believe are healed but are simply experiencing the memory of the illness in their bodies...many of us with chronic pain or illness are very intense beings and as such we IMPRINT things deeply. So, when we have physically healed, that imprint may still need to be expelled from our energy body...and that can take time. Be patient and good to yourselves as this happens..also, learn from it. Again healing is a process and a journey NOT just a destination! Namaste beautiful ones! xoxo Lynn
Maria..I also wanted to update you on my VEGAN eating!! I have been doing the intuitive eating as well and mainly eating salads of all raw chopped veggies with fruit, nuts and seeds added. This has really been amazing for me spiritually as well. You and Indu have been such an inspiration for me with this, that I thank you! I had been eating vegan before but now am more focused on it and especially staying with many raw items..of course, once in a while, my body lets me know that I need something more so I listen and do accordingly. xoxo
Lynn, I am so pleased to hear that you are feeling so great! I love eating this way. It just really makes me feel I am at my best and in touch with the universe. It's great for spirituality! Keep up the great work!!!! Love you xoxoxo
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