I am a 28 year old, high raw vegan, licensed social worker (MSW, LSW) healing from a "progressive" and "incurable" neurological disease, Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy/Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (RSD/CRPS). Join me as I reflect, learn, grow, HEAL, and conquer. You can e-mail me at email@example.com, follow me on Twitter at http://twitter.com/happyhealing44, friend me on facebook: facebook.com/prefontaine44, or
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HUGE Awakening, Cuteness Overload, Space of Love, Fear, Ketamine...
Hello, healers! Enjoy some cuteness overload with these Addie pictures. We've been enjoying the pool now that the heat has come to NJ:
Just enjoying lots of greens lately, in salad and juice form:
My mind has been spinning lately, and a lot has been going on in my personal life. In nineteen days, I will be receiving my ketamine infusion. It is certainly sneaking up on me. My spirit is not sick, and sometimes, I am so in that spiritual space of love that I almost forget I have this illness. It is such a buzz kill when I re-enter this earthly, human condition and realize I have RSD/CRPS and this hospital stay hanging over my head.
I am still working on some amazing spiritual awakenings that I don't want to talk about just yet, but a few days ago, I had an amazing awakening that took me to a new space in my healing. I have ALWAYS respected and had gratitude for my RSD/CRPS because of what it has taught me, but it has always been muddied by the fear and extreme pain that crept into my consciousness from time to time. A few days ago, I had a heavy day of juicing, which I do every now and again to raise my vibrational frequency (raw foods have a high vibration) and slightly force an awakening. It works! While I was reading a spiritual text, I had this overwhelming feeling of pure love for my RSD/CRPS. I thought to myself, "WOW! Without this illness, my life would not be so calm, peaceful, and filled with love, joy, and gratitude," and all of the fear surrounding my future and the progression of the illness faded, just disappeared. It was incredible! I always had these feelings, but this has taken it to a new level because I feel this way 100% of the time now. It was so extremely powerful and has shifted my conciousness in such a big way. No more fear, anger, frustration, sadness, longing, need for control, etc. One awakening shifted my entire existance.
I don't know if I am explaining this well. I am having trouble putting thoughts into words today. I can try to elaborate next time, but let me know if you have any questions about it.