Hello, healers! Enjoy some cuteness overload with these Addie pictures. We've been enjoying the pool now that the heat has come to NJ:
Just enjoying lots of greens lately, in salad and juice form:
My mind has been spinning lately, and a lot has been going on in my personal life. In nineteen days, I will be receiving my ketamine infusion. It is certainly sneaking up on me. My spirit is not sick, and sometimes, I am so in that spiritual space of love that I almost forget I have this illness. It is such a buzz kill when I re-enter this earthly, human condition and realize I have RSD/CRPS and this hospital stay hanging over my head.
I am still working on some amazing spiritual awakenings that I don't want to talk about just yet, but a few days ago, I had an amazing awakening that took me to a new space in my healing. I have ALWAYS respected and had gratitude for my RSD/CRPS because of what it has taught me, but it has always been muddied by the fear and extreme pain that crept into my consciousness from time to time. A few days ago, I had a heavy day of juicing, which I do every now and again to raise my vibrational frequency (raw foods have a high vibration) and slightly force an awakening. It works! While I was reading a spiritual text, I had this overwhelming feeling of pure love for my RSD/CRPS. I thought to myself, "WOW! Without this illness, my life would not be so calm, peaceful, and filled with love, joy, and gratitude," and all of the fear surrounding my future and the progression of the illness faded, just disappeared. It was incredible! I always had these feelings, but this has taken it to a new level because I feel this way 100% of the time now. It was so extremely powerful and has shifted my conciousness in such a big way. No more fear, anger, frustration, sadness, longing, need for control, etc. One awakening shifted my entire existance.
I don't know if I am explaining this well. I am having trouble putting thoughts into words today. I can try to elaborate next time, but let me know if you have any questions about it.
Happy Healing!
12 comments:
I'm so happy you had such a huge awakening! I can't wait to hear more!
Love the salads, and you are so tan, I'm so jealous! :) Addie is such a cutie pie! Enjoy!
Great going Maria!! Addie is SO cute. Love the first pic of her. Your looking great as well..
Hope your infusions go well:)
Hi Maria! I thought about you this morning and was going to email you, and voila, here you are!! I am SO glad that you are continuing to gain more awakenings ... I think you are being more aligned with your higher self. Yes, it is hard coming back to earth and remembering that we are three dimensional. I think that those moments of awakening help us to deal more with daily life. Thank you for sharing with us. :) I look forward to learning more from you and your other awakenings, when you are ready. Love you girl!! xo.
Hi, Lauren! Thank you! I only look tan because Addie and Pat are so white!
Indu, thanks so much! That first pic makes me smile every time. xoxo
Mary! I was going to send you a message, too! Lynn and I were wondering how you were yesterday. Thank you for all of your support and understanding. You really seem to get what I wrote even though it was incoherent! I totally agree. Those moments help me deal with the pain because I know another one will come soon. Hope you are well! Love you xoxo
I love reading about your spiritual awakening. I love seeing how mental going through an illness is, and you are a prime example of using positive energy to adapt and overcome to an illness.
I hope you have more epiphanies and the infusion goes well!
Holy Mackerel! this sounds amazing! I just adore, adore, adore those quiet moments when suddenly you realise a Vital Truth and even as the thought is washing over you, still developing, more *felt* than thought, you can actually feel the universe shift just that tiny little bit. There's no going back. Spectacular!
Also, your second salad looks divine - what is in that yummy bowl??
What a *beautiful* post, Maria! Your insight is inspiring, and you explained it wonderfully. Thank you so much for sharing your story so openly.
Addie is so freaking cute!!
I have had so much stress in my life lately that a lot of my 'me time' for healing has kinda gotten lost and boy am I missing it! Looking forward to settling down over the next couple of months so that I can stay on track with my rehab and eliminate some more crap from my diet. It's so hard to change when I can't prepare my own foods! Am going to take a leaf out of your book (puns always intended :P) and get a juicer.
Thanks for another inspiring post! Good luck for the infusion, hospital and drugs aren't fun but a break from the pain is totally worth it. I hope that you have huge success with it! Are you having an afternoon infusion or a several days one?
Much love,
Caf xx
Red, thank you! Yes, mental and physical health are and always will be one.
thebaker, beautifully said! I think spinach, walnuts, raspberries, and a few croutins for a crunch. Yum!
Olivia, you are so welcome! Thank you for following along with me xoxo
Hi, caf! I am so sorry you are going through a rough spot. I know them all too well. I am praying for you. The juicer is a great idea! My infusion will be the five day continous inpatient treatment. Oy!
Hi Maria! Yes, I totally have been thinking about Lynn too. I know that I am going to meet her someday, but I am busy trying to figure out other things first. I also am sort of getting guidance from someone else right now, so I need to figure out how I can see them both - while this woman is amazing, I know that Lynn can help take me to a deeper spiritual level. I will let you know when I make that move. xo.
You are so cool Maria, Love your wonderful attitude and positive energy.
xo
Eco Mama
Thank you, Eco Mama! You are so sweet!
Mary, it will all work out when the time is right :-) Maybe you can work with who you see now on the mental and emotional, and thne flip over to Lynn for the spiritual when you are done. You'll know what is right. You have great intuition already.
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