Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Hi, healers! It's been about a month since I started the full Gerson Therapy (potassium supplements, stainless steel enema kit, niacin, etc.), and I did an entire 60 minute, challenging yoga DVD today without stopping once and in minimal pain! I haven't accomplished that in six years! AND, I am down to 300mg of neurontin. On Thursday, I will be off of it completely. The only medication left will be the 14mg of LDN and occasional .5mg of ativan for pain. It's a miracle! Progress has been steady, although, every now and then, I have a rise in pain. More good days than bad!
I was asked to do a detailed post on Gerson Therapy and also one on criticism. I'll get on those ASAP. I'm off to acupuncture right now.
According to the Gerson Institute, I am the first person they know of using Gerson for RSD/CRPS. They've asked me to fill out a series of questions for them every three months to record how the therapy is working for this disease. Cool!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Hi, healers! Still doing Gerson Therapy. I had some gluten sneak into my oats, so that set me back a few days. Oats are usually contaminated with gluten unless specified "Gluten-Free" on the package. Gluten not only gives me a stomach ache for a few days, but it kicks up my neurological symptoms and inflammation.
Here are the typical foods one eats on Gerson Therapy:
Kale, broccoli, onion, potato, raw apple cider vinegar, 1 tbsp of flax oil:
BIG salad - all the veggies you could ever want:
Gluten free oats soaked in distilled water, banana, and lots of veggie juices:
That about sums up the foods you are allowed to eat on Gerson Therapy (and most fruits except berries and pineapple).
Enjoy some new Osho quotes:
"Whatsoever you say about others never shows anything about others, it simply shows something about you." - Osho (brilliant!)
"Really, until you know yourself, you are alone." - Osho
"You cannot find God because he is not somewhere else, he is within you. And there you never look because all the priests say, 'Look there in heaven. He exists far away. The journey is long; the priest will be needed to help you.' He is within you. Then what is needed of the priest? The whole profession loses meaning." - Osho
"Because a Buddha, a Jesus, is always rebellious, he is never a conformist. He can create a revolution, he cannot create an establishment." - Osho
"A really religious man, a master, wants to make you stronger. And a priest is just a cunning man who knows what your weakness is." - Osho
"Postponing is not the way of transformation. Up to now you have been postponing again and again. Each moment you have been postponing, and that's why you have remained the same." - Osho
"A guilty man moves around to find someone to punish him. When no one is punishing him, he feels living more difficult. When someone punishes him, he feels at ease." - Osho
"Man lives in lies. He has to, because he is trying not to accept the whole of his being, only part is accepted. Then what to do about the other part? He has to create some lie to hide it." - Osho
"If you want to be true, you have to change yourself." - Osho
"Man lives in lies, every man, because lies are very convenient, comfortable. Truth is hard, inconvenient, uncomfortable. You can invent your own lie to fit you but you cannot invent the truth." - Osho
"They (Jesus, Buddha, Loa Tzu) have reached the very center of life, they have known. Their knowledge is not through intellect, their knowledge is through being. That's why I call Jesus a man of being, not a man of knowledge." - Osho
Friday, August 19, 2011
Supporting the University of Miami during this scandal. Once a Cane, always a Cane! The _
Hi, healers! I want to share with you some of my favorite quotes from the new Osho book I am reading. More to come. Enjoy!
Also, check out my crazy sexy testamonial on Kris' Praise Page. I'm the third one down.
"...prayerfulness means love to the whole. And if you have been a failure in love with an ordinary human being, how can you succeed in your love with the divine?" - Osho
"The more things accumulate, the more life is wasted because they have to be purchased at the cost of life. You are less alive..." - Osho
"And it is very easy and cheap to create an image, but it is very difficult and hard to really be something." - Osho (LOVE this!)
"Many people are ill as an occupation: in the world, fifty percent of illness exists as an occupation. You remain occupied, then you need not face yourself." - Osho
"If you become a light unto yourself you become a light unto others. But that is a blooming, and every body is benefited; knowingly, unknowingly, every body is benefited. You become a blessing." - Osho
"But why is every body so afraid of dying - at the moment of death you will see your whole life has been a wastage." - Osho
"Self-knowledge is the most difficult thing; not because it is difficult, but because you are scared to know about yourself." - Osho
"Unless you attain to the inner unity you will move from one misery to another; from one woman to another, from one man to another, from one life of misery to another life of misery. The change may give you hope, but it is hopeless: the whole affair is hopeless." - Osho
"When the clouds, the thoughts, are not there and the sun shines with full awareness, the world is one." - Osho
"Life follows death just like a wave is followed by a hollow. They are not separate, they are one: the rhythm of one." - Osho
"All boundaries are manmade. There are no boundaries in reality." - Osho
A sage dies fulfilled: then there is no more birth, because then there is no need to come back to the world of experience. You die incomplete, and because of that incompleteness you have to be born again." - Osho
"A saint, a sage, has gone beyond the mind because he understands the futility of it. He has renounced that desire to succeed, to impress others, the desire to be the greatest, the most important, the desire to fulfill the ego." - Osho
"Look for the deathless and remain alert; don't waste your time with that which is not going to endure, don't waste your life for that which is going to change, which is part of the changing world." - Osho
"You can possess only yourself because that will never go away. The being is permanent, eternal; it is timelessly yours. It cannot be taken away from you." - Osho
"Now you feel the pain, the suffering of wasted life, of time lost. Death is coming nearer and soon you will dissolve with your hands empty. This emptiness is inner; you cannot fill it with anything you can get in the world; it cannot be fulfilled unless you get yourself." - Osho
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Hi, healers! Look at this stainless steel enema kit I just ordered - free of the nasty toxins that plastics, etc. can come with. I'm really living on the edge!!!
My best friend from the University of Miami (GO CANES!) came to visit me last weekend. Here we are representing THE U and just looking plain adorable :-)
AND, today, my GH graduated from his CPE internship. Congrats, Brad! I'm so proud of you!
To end this blog post, I am going to leave you with some Osho wisdom:
"...you start hating yourself. And remember: if you hate yourself you cannot love anybody else. Impossible! How can you love somebody when you hate yourself? If poison exists at the source, it will posion all of your relationships. So you are never able to love anybody.
And remember the second thing which follows as a logical consequence: if you hate yourself, how can you think that anybody is going to love you? If you cannot love yourself, who is going to love you? So you know deep down that nobody is going to love you; and even if somebody tries, you never believe him. You go on looking...he must be deceiving you. How can anybody love you? - you cannot love yourself. Then even if someone loves you, you are skeptical about it, doubtful. You cannot trust, and you will find ways and means to prove that he doesn't love you. And when it is proved, you are at ease, then everything is right.[*POWERFUL*]" - Osho
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
"Christians missed the inner thing that happened at the crucifixion. Only a few can see it. Those who have seen themselves can see what happened at the crucifixion: this man accepted. That was the miracle. This man suffered and accepted, this man suffered and still remained filled with love, that was the miracle. Those who were killing him, murdering him, he could pray even for them. That is the miracle, that is the greatest miracle, the greatest miracle that ever happened on earth.
The last words of Jesus were, 'God, forgive them because they don't know what they are doing. Don't punish them, because they are ignorant.' This is the greatest miracle at the crucifixion: the whole body is suffering and he is dying, yet still filled with love...
This is divine. At the crucifixion he proved he was the son of God, because compassion remained pure. You could not posion his compassion, you could not destroy his prayer, you could not destroy his heart. Whatsoever you did, he accepted you [*Take a lesson from this*]. He would not reject you, even in that moment of suffering and misery he would not reject you. He said, 'Forgive them, because they don't know what they are doing.'" - Osho, The Mustard Seed: The Revolutionary Teachings of Jesus, Commentaries on the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas
Monday, August 8, 2011
"If people avoid you, remember, they are not responsible. Something in you makes them avoid you. If people don't want to meet you, if they find excuses to escape from you, remember, they are not responsible. You must be doing something negative to their energy.
If people seek you, if people become friendly immediately, if people feel a certain affinity - even strangers would like to come and sit close to you, would like to hold your hand, would just like to be with you - that means you must be knowingly or unknowingly helping them. Everybody is burdened with great misery, everybody is under great suffering, everybody's heart is hurting. There is much pain.
Atisha says before you can do this with the whole existence, you will have to start first with yourself. This is one of the fundamental secrets of inner growth. You cannot do anything with others that you have not done in the first place with yourself. You can hurt others if you hurt yourself, you will be a pain in the necks of others if you are a pain in the neck to yourself, you can be a blessing to others only if you are a blessing to yourself.
Whatsoever you can do with others, you must have done to yourself before, because that is the only thing that you can share. You can share only that which you have, you cannot share that which you don't have." - Osho
Sunday, August 7, 2011
"Life is short, energy is limited, very limited. And with this limited energy we have to find the unlimited; with this short life we have to find the eternal. A great task, a great challenge! SO, PLEASE DON'T BE CONCERNED WITH UNIMPORTANT MATTERS.
Remember, only that which you can take with you when you leave the body is important. That means, except meditation, nothing is important, Except awareness, nothing is important, because only awareness cannot be taken away by death. Everything else will be snatched away, because everything else come from without. Only awareness wells up within; that cannot be taken away. And the shadows of awareness - compassion, love - they cannot be taken away; they are intrinsic parts of awareness.
You will be taking with you only whatsoever awareness you have attained; that is your only real wealth. All else is 'ill-th' not 'well-th.'" - Osho
Don't forget to check out my coffee enema post.
Don't forget to check out my coffee enema post.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Hi, healers! I promised many of you that I would explain my coffee enema routine once I was done with a piece for a social work magazine that I was asked to write (so flattered!). I'll see if I can post it on my blog for you all to read.
So, here it is. You use an UNBLEACHED coffee filter, 3 scoops of ORGANIC coffee, and 4 cups of water. Brew. Then, you add filtered water to the coffee you just brewed so that it equals 4 cups again:
**DON'T FORGET TO LET THE COFFEE COOL TO ROOM TEMPERATURE**
Next, you add it to your enema bag and hang from a doorknob or somewhere above you. After you are settled, laying on your right side, you insert the tube into your anus (use a natural lubricant) and let 2 cups of the coffee and filtered water mixture enter into your lower intestine. Clamp the tube shut. Hold for 10-15 minutes, then hurry to the toilet!!! And repeat with the rest:
I settle in with my ipod, a good book, and my pillow pet:
To clean the enema bag and tube where you inserted, you want to use a mixture of peroxide and filtered water. I also drink coconut water to replenish any lost electrolytes.
Remember, you always want to check with your doctor if you think you have any health conditions that might be aggrivated by coffee enemas. This is just what I do. Everyone is different.
Questions? Don't forget you can use my formspring page, too.
“The man who knows how to live, knows how to die. The man who knows how to fall in love, knows when the moment has come to fall out of it. He falls out of it gracefully, with good-bye, with gratitude – but only the man who knows how to love.
People don’t know how to love, and then they don’t know how to say good-bye when the time has come to say it. If you love you will know that everything begins and everything ends, and there is a time for beginning and there is a time for ending, and there is no wound in it. One is not wounded. One simply knows the season is over. One is not in despair, only simply understands, one thanks the other, “You gave me so many beautiful gifts. You gave me new visions of life, you opened a few windows that I might have never opened on my own. Now the time has come that we separate and our ways part.” Not in anger, not in rage, not with a grudge, not with any complaint, but with tremendous gratitude, with great love, with thankfulness from the heart.” - Osho
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
“Remember, if you repress something, you have to repress it constantly – day in and day out, year in and year out. And the problem is not solved by repressing. In fact, it becomes more and more acute, chronic, because whatsoever is repressed becomes more and more powerful. It gathers energy. It becomes a tumor inside of you.
Surrender is out of love… Dependency is out of fear. It [surrender] is like falling in love. In fact, it is exactly falling in love – a love that knows no bounds, a love that is totally different from what you ordinarily call love. Your love is again a kind of dependency. You become dependent on the person you love, because in fact, you don’t love, you are simply finding somebody to cling to; otherwise you feel very lonely. You want to avoid your loneliness, you want somebody to fill your inner black hole, your emptiness.
But real love is not an escape from loneliness, real love is an overflowing aloneness. One is so happy in being alone that one would like to share – happiness always wants to share… Surrender is the highest form of love. You will not feel dependent because there will be no clinging in it. You will not feel dependent because it is not out of loneliness that you have surrendered.” - Osho
Happy Healing and Loving!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
“Why in the first place do you run after spurious pleasures? This woman, this man…why do you run after spurious pleasures? What is the rationale behind it? The rationale is that you are already in sorrow. You want somehow to forget all about it; you want to drown yourself in alcohol, in sex, in money, in power politics – you want to somehow drown yourself.
A few people drown in power politics, a few seek shelter in sexuality, a few go to the pub, but many more simply go on searching spurious comforts, go from one comfort to another. When they have achieved one and found that it gives nothing, no nourishment, immediately they start seeking something else. Their life becomes a constant occupation so they need not look at the inner sorrow gathering like a cloud, a dark cloud. (love that)
Rather than seek spurious comforts, the best way to go is to go into your sorrow. Meditate, go deep into it. Don’t escape from your misery because by escaping you will never learn what it is and you will never learn how to transcend it. The beauty is, if you really know the cause of your misery, in that very knowing misery is transcended – because the cause is always always ignorance and nothing else.” - Osho: The Book of Tibetan Wisdom